I should be depressed and angry right now but I feel something deeper happening. This chapter is just a bridge to the next and maybe that next chapter is about you.
Maybe it’s us sitting in the backyard stargazing and me smiling to myself as I remember writing this. Remembering how confused I was and how far away all of this felt. I think about how this now was preceded by so much sadness. I think about how one must lose to know how to win.
Life is a teacher of perspective. Faith is not something you hide behind but something you stand on.
I’m prepared for whatever comes. It won’t be easy and it most certainly won’t be painless but growth is in the struggle. Contentment lies just on the other side of despair.
That future conversation under the stars gives me such strength. Your presence is all the grace I need. My empathy wraps around you like a blanket and yours shines a soft golden light into my darkest places. We heal together in a decades long conversation. We share our deepest hurts and then cover them with unconditional love and acceptance.
We laugh, we cry, we live. I’ll meet you in the backyard.
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